I'm sorry.

so.. I messed up today. What I messed up on isn't too important... but I really did mess up. And I feel so sorry! I mean.. this is Holy Week. How could i be doing things wrong this week of all weeks?! Weak. I am so weak. It makes me want to cry... Foolish me.. loading more hurts on Jesus' back when he's already carrying so much. Making His cross heavier with my foolish, selfish little sins of self-hatred.
I am so sorry.

I'm sorry to you, anyone who reads this. i'm sorry to my family, I'm sorry to all my loves. i wish i could make up for all the times i've messed up... I wish I could make up for these times, but there is nothing we can do to change the past. all we can do is go on, and try to make the future a better place to live in. I'm going straight to confession, and i'm starting all over again. I pray that God will give me the strength to come out of this stronger in His love, and with more determination to do better.

there is still hope, time for a world reborn.